today log for 31/10/2017::
i had a really heavy and sad feeling,
suddenly..don't know why,
but suddenly, it became so heavy..painful and sad.
this is the same feeling when my grandma and my aunt died
for the next day..huh..i was about to tell my mom..
but i did't tell her coz she stop me from asking about it.
if any of u read this, must say, why just don't tell
them..i am afraid might make them afraid and sad.
well..i'm sorry, but my instinct never be wrong.

nothing to say..just a piece if my mind

just a piece of my thought....

sometimes i feel like i'm so unlucky in my life.
then i realise i bit lucky sometimes.
well..i had enough food to eat every month.
had a safe place to stay..and a had a good working environment.
when i down, i try to think my situation compare to other.
i might unlucky with people..especially guys..weird guys..
hahaha..don't know why..it happen..i try my best to get away from that.
it not like i hate man, but i do my best not get involve with any of them.
any guys that came to me usually a guys that give me trouble. i know,
not everyone are same..it not guy..girl also like that. don't feel offend.
i understand easily with people attitude..i may not know them for long,
but my instinct never lies.. ok..leave that.. still my life.. i must make a terrible mistake before i been born..since i born,i be like always unlucky..bad luck is always around me.
don't know what i do wrong, i can sense it somehow, and it funny to me either,
how did i know. bad things always happen to me, but it a miracle if i got lucky.
i just lucky coz i still live in decent life everyday. i guess that a gift to stay alive.
sorry for anyone who read this crappy thing i wrote..still..thank for read it.