14122018 some word to encourage myself

11 Dis 2018 Diary

there is a human i like the most for no reason,
he make me more confused these day,
i wonder if he being serious or just play around me,
if he just play around, i'm fine for it,
it more scare and weird if he serious suddenly.
i love him but to believe that he my fate,
it seem unrealistic for me,
it more like a fake love,
a pretended feeling,
a feeling that not given with sincerely to other,
where the other feel being push or force,
to take the other feeling on them.
i don't want to have that kind of relationship,
if he my fated one, he have to make me completely sure,
and trust him for this relationship,
because this can be broken easily after bind with vow.
as far as i remember he just wanna play around me,
and i'm fine on it.
i don't think we are couple either,
none of us ask to be each other partner,
he never ask me to be his girl nor me as him to be my men.
maybe it just a friend type right?
i'm just telling myself we just a friend.
Even if he cheated on me, it won't hurt me much,
for i already knows it can be happen and possible to happen,
he deserve to be with good partner,
i'm lack of that from all girl,
all i have is myself, being ugly, being bored one,
and being confidence in all my prediction and instinct.
i should stay away as long as i can,
maybe it the best like the way i did before,
avoiding him..
yet if he my fate,
even if i run to the end of the world,
we will meet somehow, somewhere.
people can plan but the God will decide it.
Hopefully it will end well in the end.

iKON – 'Love Scenario' (사랑을 했다) Lyrics [Color Coded_Han_Rom_Eng]

12/11/2018 Dairy Log

The One Who Exactly Ruining Your Life is Yourself
Wrong Step in Deciding Your Life will Make You Suffer
And Full of Regret
Try Be Careful in Your Next Path
If You Ready in Accepting Your Fate
Face it No Matter How Hard It and Move On
Find Something Else and Never Forget
Mistake that Been Made Should be Remember
Use it To Guide Your Next Life.

It sound easy when write this up right?
But it actually hard when you try to do it.

Wanna One (워너원) - Always (이 자리에) (Acoustic Ver.) [HAN|ROM|ENG Color Code...

i wish too

Wanna One (워너원) - '약속해요 (I.P.U.)' M/V l Special Theme Track

i promise you..

Steve Aoki - Waste It On Me feat. BTS (Lyric Video) [Ultra Music]

waste your love on me as long as you can

just my feeling

i'm impress on myself to waste my feeling onto something that have no chance to happen in real.

but at same time i feel wanna waste my feeling on him and telling myself it ok because you already waste to much feeling on him. i;m must be hopeless in love. i solve other people love but not mine. what a unique fate i have. somehow i think it funny it happen to me mostly.

somehow im envy to those girl who actually have a chance to be with him. what a lucky girl. they lucky and some of them are pretty i think. well i don't stalk him anyway. so i never know and it just a guess. 

SEVENTEEN – Don't Wanna Cry (울고 싶지 않아) (Color Coded Han|Rom|Eng Lyrics) ...

my current feeling now..

11/11/2018 Dairy

Just a random post..
I keep thinking on it,
Why do i ever like a same person for long time.
Why i have a crush on him for no reason.
Why he have to be the one i like.
What make me keep having a feeling on him.
Why,Why,Why?
I keep questioning my self why it have to be like that.
What wrong with me? What mistake did i do? What sin did i do?
Can i forget him? Can i not miss him?
It weird because we never talk much,
not even be a friend in the past,
but i like him for so long,
even when i with someone, i still think about him.
i still miss him even i with someone.
i'm must be sick crazy human.
What so great about him that i can't forget him?
He not even my couple nor my ex.
I wish i have good reason on it.
I wonder if this love is Fake Love or a Real Love.
This feeling make me more flustered everyday.
And i know he won't belong to me.
But yesterday, i tell him i like him for 12 years.
I know, i don't expect to
Thanks.

Sabah Memory

Trip to Kundasang..me and my friend had go for vacation at Sabah. The next day, our friend bring us visiting Kundasang. And we got lucky coz we can see the top of Kinabalu Mountain on our way.

We stop around Nabalu Market and take some picture. Behind me is the Mount Kinabalu and Nabalu Market. It so bright here and i can't open my eyes wide. Not to mention the wind. My hair become messy.

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Along the road we take, there a stall selling fresh vegetable, fruits, flowers and snack(kuih)

 a nice view along the road..i wish can capture more of it

 A part of Mount Kinabalu

 This is where we otw visit Sabah Tea Farm. I buy 5 kind of tea there. But my fav one is Greentea with Brown Rice.

The roundabout otw to Sabah Tea. My friend make three round for me to take picture of it.Thanks..

 
 Arriving at tea farm, and the first one attract my attention is this big teapot.

Selfie time begin..at same time the rain drop little by little.

 

Keep Calm and Peace Yo!!

 The Tea View

There not a lot thing we do here, coz it start to raining heavily. 
 

 



Taking as much picture is a must.

Desa Dairy Farm. Where we gonna meet the cow and feed them. Not to mention, their milk are delicious. I buy one Original and other are Chocolate.

Real tree decorate. Well our trip was on December 2017.

Hello!! I'm the Cow Resident

Backyard  

 

  

 
 
 
 
 
 
selfie selfie selfie

 War Memorial Park.

 The area are small yet im exhausted because of staircase. I'm not that healthy person.

 Behind me is a flower garden but it close.

 One of the Entrance Gate. I think it a small castle.

 Here what look inside the close Garden. Too bad cant enter in it. Btw, there also a security guard there.

 i forget the Gaden theme

Here some information place about this place

 There also a souvenir shop. I buy dream catch key chain there.

ahhhhh...i think i lost other picture..i cant find the one when we visit Manukan and Sapi Island. Huaaaaaaa...i must delete it by mistake.